Author Archive: Ashley

Over over Under…

1-22-17 I’ve decided to seek more gainful employment. It has been a difficult decision, but my current employer does not appreciate me and does not deserve a dedicated employee like me. The only thing that holds me is the patients. I have a heart for their needs, but I absolutely refuse to allow them to …

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Exhaustive.

Another bequtiful day in the neighborhood.🙄 I woke up early enough..wanted to get up and sworkit but my intense desire to escape the crumb capade glued me to my bed. It’s tough. Hard to focus on what I need to do for Me. I’ve been getting better at rising above it in my head, but …

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But all is well…

Well this has been a new experience for me this holiday season..nothing has changed in some aspects. My sister’s drug abuse has intensified and my mother’s depression is on a steady march. However, my fervent desire to hold tight to my own happiness and well being is in full effect. I’m holding my positive energy …

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take my hand optimism..hold me close Reality.

My sister went to a treatment center yesterday and today was her 1st meeting. I’m always stoic about these things. I am proud of her for taking steps to claim her life back. I hope she has the strength to hold on to sobriety. I can’t set myself up to high for a let down…there’s …

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Fa-la-la-la-Blah?

I believe the spirit of the season should extend 365 days a year..we should recognize the needs of others and have a “Christmas” heart everyday. But this time of year has always placed the most emphasized strain on my optimism. There was a time..a long time ago..when the blissful ignorance of childhood shielded me from …

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not really a crabby crab

12/13 I’m at the drs office waiting on mum..she’s doing a much better job of making an effort at taking care of herself..I’m so proud of her for that. So ofc social settings make me aware of my social awkwardness. 🙄 But it also brings me an opportunity to remember I’ve come such a long …

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we don’t know…we won’t know unless we start. 

I’ve decked the halls and dolled up my nails with some festive sparkles☺  I’m planning to get my drivers license together before the new year. I NEED to regain my independence! There’s a lot I need to work on..not just in 2017 but starting Now. I’m making progress, but I know dang well I can …

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not really a crabby crab

12/13 I’m at the drs office waiting on mum..she’s doing a much better job of making an effort at taking care of herself..I’m so proud of her for that. So ofc social settings make me aware of my social awkwardness. 🙄 But it also brings me an opportunity to remember I’ve come such a long …

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hold tight.

It’s been a rocky few days..today is better and the same. My sister claimed she was going to get a haircut and came back with that dazed stupor on her face. I’m becoming less and less tolerant of her foolishness. That’s all her addiction is to me foolishness. I have a deep heart..am empathetic one. …

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anaphylaxic 

Sooo I forgot to mention I had another allergic reaction on Thursday evening. My face, lips, eyes , and hands were swollen and RED, rock lobster red. The last one was years ago. It was really horrid. I thought it was the ibuprofen or shrimps then. I’m not certain what caused it this time but the …

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